Hey, Amy here.
I've been having a really challenging last several weeks...
Have you ever had one of those periods of time where it feels like the world is crumbling down around you?
Or like the old saying goes, "When it rains, it pours."
That's what the last few weeks have felt like to me.
It's kind of funny
too (now in hindsight, it definitely wasn't funny at the time)... that about a week and a half ago, on Sunday morning I was journaling and praying. I was praying for a sign of hope. I literally asked God to show me a sign today to help me feel hopeful.
And then I grabbed my surfboard and went into the ocean and got hit in the face with my board... and in the
midst of being seriously injured, I was thinking to myself,
"Is this my sign, God? Are you telling me there is no hope?"
Anyway, that injury has set me back quite a bit and humbled me and taught me new
levels of patience... it was one more thing in the pile with all of the other things that were crumbling down, and there have been other things since that day as well.
It's one of those times where I feel like as soon as I start to pick myself up again, I get knocked down once more.
And what's been coming up for me through all of this is the word 'faith'.
I have had days where I've had a hard time finding faith that things can turn around... or even finding the faith that I once had that I was on the right track.
I've been grasping for faith.
And, in doing so, signs and messages have been showing up for me everywhere.
For example, I'm
reading a new book, a new translation of the Tao te Ching and in yesterday's lesson it said,
"Have faith in where things are."
I wrote that in my journal and then in capital letters I wrote HAVE FAITH. I
just have to keep reminding myself.
The day before there was a sentence I read in the book that says,
"Whatever happens is all right."
ALL right. And that is the thought I held onto that day.
I love this quite from Voltaire:
"Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of
reason to believe."
I love this because I think where I slip up is when I start to believe that it can't be possible... when we tell ourselves that, we are not exercising faith.
When we have faith we are able to believe beyond reason. And this is what there is for us to do.
