Hi, Amy here.
As I continue to listen to the signs and trust the inner guidance I'm being given through the uncertainty in my life, I keep reminding myself to stay in the excitement of the unknown, rather than letting it feel stressful.
I also keep reminding myself of the importance
of slowing down and being guided rather than feeling like I have to know what's happening next or to feel like I'm in control.
It's been an interesting process. It's a bit unsettling but it's also a crazy feeling when I think about all of the possibilities that are available when it comes to ways and places for me to spend next chapter of my life.
So many
thoughts and ideas have come up, and I'm literally just entertaining them all.
I've also been thinking a lot about the importance of not waiting for 'someday'.
The reality is that someday is an illusion. It's not a day on the calendar. And as I get older I realize at a deeper level how often we believe that we have more time than we actually do, leading
to indefinite delays when it comes to doing the things we want to do in this lifetime.
I've been thinking a lot about my dad at the end of his life. I remember when we found out that he was going to die soon and I asked him if there was somewhere he wanted to go before that happened, a trip he never got to take. And his eyes just welled up with tears, because he realized it was too late.
He wasn't afraid to die, but every once in a while when he got present to the idea that he was at the end of his time here, that time had run out, he would get sad. Or a certain song would come on, and he would weep, knowing this might be the last time he would hear it. And I will never forget seeing all of that and how it impacted me.
So, it's been an interesting balance for me, between not wanting to control things and
rush things and make things happen, but also not wanting to put my life on hold anymore.
